Dante "Inferno" Zaragoza - Death'll find you... (xolotl) wrote in repose,
Re: Hannah/Dante. I hurt people. Both. Def both. When my head gets messy I lose track of times and promises and things. Just sorta become a fucking hot mess all the time. It's not a good time.
You're right.
Doctors are all fucking weird, makes me glad I found Georgia. Half the time I can talk science at a level they don't expect which makes them get weird at me and I've got no problem being a fucking bitch if they're not gonna listen.
It is hard to be happy but you know, sadness isn't always something that has to be gotten rid of. Sure it sucks and most people don't want it but that doesn't mean it's bad. Sadness can help us cope and grieve and move through what's happening, or has happened, to us, you know? There's an upside to most shit I guess. IDK. When my mom died there was a lot of talk about grief and how it gets a bad wrap and yeah it sucks but it's kinda like the brain's tool to help itself process through the shit and sewage too. But sometimes it's.... Sometimes it just [.....] really nice when someone will sit with you and try to care for you in soft ways without having it all be about making the sadness go away right now. Like being understanding that sometimes that's just a thing that happens and the only real answer is to cuddle in blankets and order take-out.
I've always thought the dark is beautiful.
Your earlier question, the last time I was happy, I... I'm not sure I have a good answer. I... I have more moments of happy than I have extended periods. Like today someone I care about bought me coffee and books while I was at work and it... [.......] it was nice. A little confusing but... nice. [.......] Really nice.