Re: holly/sunny
i think it's maybe an anxiety thing partly? it's one of the things i've had to talk and learn about. but like, i get a thought in my head sometimes and it'll just stick there. and sometimes i think about it so much that it turns into other things until i just want something to make it stop. but now i have to be aware that the two of them need me to feed them and clean their house and all those things that have nothing to do with what i'm thinking. and they're getting used to me more, in a way that seems like they like me. it's nice.
yeah, because at this point i don't think i'd ever be able to measure up to something like that. but like, in a way that i still need to interact with people and have a job and be an adult and stuff. does that make sense?