Re: holly nw/jack p
Do you convince yourself? Out of interest. I think I could, in theory, hover somewhere in between. I'm good at lying. Very good, it's sort of a prime school for that sort of thing when your father tends to take it out on the brother or the mother if you're not convincing.
Milked, with your perspective. With mine, I knew what I was doing. So it's all a matter of perspective, really. You're all about financials. Not because you spend a lot, I don't think you do. Money's surety. Knowing where you are in the world, a little certainty you can build up specially if it's been wrecked over and over again by other people who spend the money. So did I know you were finding all possible ways to rinse an offer of help to extend it? Yes, Holly. I'm not stupid. Sentimental's a nice thing to kick about a bit, but I'm a journalist. Or I was. I knew exactly what you were doing, and I went along with it. But I have money. Lots of it, invested in boring shite that will make it worth more than I can spend. And I'm not all that bothered about it, because I grew up with it, then had none, then acquired it.
So. The point being, you think you've been your self-interested self and had me over a barrel. Perspective, really. I'm selfish. I liked to think you got what you needed, even a little of what you wanted. Did something for the guilt, more for the interest in seeing what you'd do. Selfish.
Righto, but that's other people being assholes to Noah. That isn't you. That isn't you causing them, that's obliviousness, self-interest or whatever else is floating around out there. Blindness. So it's not you. Stop claiming credit for other people's stupidity. It doesn't belong to you, you can't have it.
I'm not going to die. I told you I wasn't going anywhere. Those aren't the kind of lies I tell. Are we worried about your gramps? Search parties, PIs, that kind of thing?