Re: [Anony emails.]
Aren't you? I do it. I imagine he does it too. I think your family and friends probably do when it comes around to them. It's human. It's not nice, but we're not nice creatures. We try, and how we feel isn't what we put in front of them. I'm not advocating you tell him, 'shit, it'd be nice if we could focus on me right now, given I'm trawling through the shit and I'd prefer if we could concentrate on getting me out'. But you're fighting a losing battle not to begrudge it in the first place. In the same way that it's perfectly normal to resent the friends and family for not rallying the way they're supposed to.
That's what I meant. If you're not awake when it's the blood and shit and pain that makes it real, it's going to be less immediate.