Re: eddie/muerte
And other than this conversation, when was the last time you checked on me? And look. I'm still alive. You take this onto yourself, and I know you do it because you worry, and I know that this has been you drawing a line, and I get that. But never once did I expect you to save me or to be some sort of hero for me. The months before I knew you were here, I was wallowing and I admit it. The clues were me trying to reach out while I was like that. The next few months, I was still stuck in that. Like I was trying to come out of hibernation. And if nothing else, getting burned and then seeing how I heal when I'm awake and don't when I'm asleep, is enough to keep me waking up on a regular basis. When someone writes to me or texts me or call, or even just expects me to be somewhere at a certain time, I wake up without a problem now.
[...] You don't want to be a snake-man, Eddie. Even if it sounds like an adventure.
Again, we're all a mess. If it's something you want to pursue, then do your research and decide if you can.