Re: Capital: Jamie & Seven Friday night
This was way, way far from comfortable. Like, the couch was comfortable, and he was like, warm and stuff and without the spidering of anxiety up his spine and into his throat, Jamie would probably BE comfortable but his comfort was fissured, broken open on the like whole thread of weird novelty walking through the hotel with the guy, aware of attraction thick-currented like lightning, and the momentary flare when he'd seen the guy crackle with his own tension, his anger palpable. It would have been like, NICE to close his eyes and block the reasonableness, the relaxed posture Seven had on the couch out. But Jamie didn't.
Okay, so the guy didn't expect. Which was like, a nice way of saying shit wasn't quid pro quo, he wasn't HERE to drop trou and suck cock, take a knee or whatever but it wasn't the same as lack of expectations. Nothing ever was. It was like the insult thing, Seven definitely expected something, because they weren't strangers. Like, if anything hammered that shit home further than Holly's intent behind a computer screen someplace, it was this. Expectation, like, need, versus expectation like anticipation, percolated in Jamie's head like bad coffee; viscous, like tar. "So you don't want to fuck like, get down to it or whatever?" Because it seemed way clear, to Jamie, that this was like, a factual thing. It was like, an either-or thing. Either shit was getting rock-hard in the back of a car and fucking to a standstill and nothing else, or it wasn't.
Seven unfurled a little, exposed his face and did that cracking shit that made Jamie wince, reflexively, imitation pain. His own neck didn't hurt but it was probably the one part of him that didn't rn, and he slid three fingers against the skin at his temple until it stretched over bone. "That shit is bad for you," he said, to the cup of his palm and yeah okay, casual. "Oh. Yeah. So like, I talked about it with a friend and he had like, a legit point. If you're not going to like, feel shit and stuff, there's no reason to not be like, friends? I've had friends I fuck. It got weird, but I think that's a way specific situation."