Re: The Good Diner: Alex, Noah, Holly
The squeeze to his knee? Did help Holly chill out. It was grounding, right? I mean, Holly was good at self-chillifying, but Noah's hand helped. And, yeah, timelines? Sent his head to scary places for sure, but he came right back around to focusing om Alex. This wasn't about his own fears of timelines and things like that. Nah, it was about the guy across the table and some seriously heavy admission. And Holly wasn't religious, right? So he'd never talked about that kinda stuff with Noah, so the comment about reincarnation? Surprising. He glanced over at the guy, fry partway to his mouth and frozen in momentary surprise, and then he looked back at Alex.
So, anyway.
"I don't think things always make sense, at least they don't seem to make sense. I have no fucking clue why I'm here, and it was kinda driving me nuts trying to find a reason, right? And nothing was going to change if I figured it out. Maybe your thing is the same way? I mean, way suckier, but maybe it's just a you thing," he suggested. Rambling, thoughts and words and whatever, because the thing was that he had no idea. None. But he could answer about the rest, right? So he did that: "Yeah. I mean, we weren't like BFFs or anything, but I think you would've told me if you died on the reg," he said of the version of Alex he'd known his entire life. "You grew up here? Like, you were in school with me forever, and last I heard you'd graduated and bailed with your boy."
He glanced over at Noah, beacuse maybe that was too blunt, yeah? And Noah was good at soothing people. Holly? Not good at soothing people, and he didn't usually talk about his own stuff. In fact, he'd almost convinced himself he was from here. Him knowing other versions of people? Never really came up anymore. So, right..., "you guys were happy." Maybe that would help? He wasn't sure, but, yeah.