Re: adrian m/patrick g
Destiny, yes, that was a little while ago. I don't remember if I posted to Claire and she didn't respond, but I don't think so - it was more that I never heard from her when I was breaking down in public. I thought maybe that was a little much for her. She might have just been going through something though. Like I said, I'll try them both again.
I just reached out again. He didn't seem thrilled. I'm going to leave him alone, at the very least.
I know, I understand why. [...] The latter. They broke up because Sue wouldn't be monogamous, not because they weren't interested in each other. It's a loose thread. It's always bothered me. Newt's right, of course, Sue offered to stay monogamous to him later and Newt didn't accept. That should have been enough. But Sue's also been gone for a year, and I thought maybe Newt would feel differently. I don't know. I don't know what I thought. A lot of stupid things went through my head. I didn't think much. I hated the idea of it. I hated the idea of it, and I still don't know how I feel about how I was when Sue and I were one person. I think I was more like him than I was like myself, but it's all me. Maybe I hated the thought Newt might want that part of me, but only when I'm not involved at all.
[A pause while he takes a break to do some breathing on the other end.] I feel like my thoughts are a scramble, I'm sorry.