Re: Hannah S/Seven M
Because I don't know if she really wants to get clean. Wants it for herself, and not just because she thinks it's important to do what I want her to do. Because if she doesn't, then it isn't going to stick, and it's just delaying her reaching whatever her own rock bottom is, which is the only thing that's going to help her get clean according to the Al-Anon meetings that I went to as a kid.
And clearly I have a hard time saying no, too.
I feel like a shitty person for it. Like I should be better, more compassionate. And I do feel for her, because she was really fucked up with post-partum after Sawyer was born. I think she left because she thought it was the best thing for us, and even though I hated her for that at the time, now I think she was right.