Jamie, grown up isn't that. Grown up is being old enough to drink and to make decisions without being too young to understand them. You're not a child. You haven't been for years and years. You live away from home, and you have a job, and you have friends that you see. You feed yourself, and you pay your bills, and that makes you an adult. Don't you see? You can't be a child anymore, not even in your head.