Re: Adrian m/Newt P
I believe you. But don't pretend to me. You never said you weren't interested in him, you weren't interested in me. You didn't like that he wouldn't stay solely with you, which is the opposite of ending things with someone due to disinterest. You can't make me think it's insane to imagine there would be a world where the two of you would wind up together again, one way or another, even if it was just a one off, can you? You've dissuaded me from the notion, but it wasn't a mad one to begin with. He's been gone for a year. You might have missed his company, and I suspect you did, which doesn't mean you want to fuck him but it does mean I wasn't sure. I wasn't confident. I'm in a cell. I needed a certain degree of confidence in something.
Good. I'm thrilled. You've done a wonderful job making me feel like a psychopath because I didn't imagine you always being at your best and I told you not to fuck me when I'm in a dissociative state, then successfully made that about you being hurt that I would imagine such a thing when you were perfectly content to do it before. Fuck off.