Re: Mars/Jamie
IDK if it's pretending. I haven't talked to Amy in weeks. Like, not properly. And I was calling her Hannah and I got used to it, and it didn't feel weird then but it does now.
But idk if it's pretending. idk how it feels to be someone and not be someone at the same time. idk how it feels to feel stuff about other people and whether it feels like hers or it doesn't at all. But yeah. Amy's dead. But she's also here like, she looks and sounds and remembers and acts like Amy and idk how I feel that my sister's buried but she's like right there. RIGHT there. Si acts like she's his sister. And she's his twin. He said that, and I felt way bad because this, how we feel isn't the same as THAT. And he knew and he knew by himself. He didn't get to like feel out loud.
I mean yeah. it's a lie. And you get to feel whatever way you want about it. But idk that it's her fault, yk?