Re: Mal r/Alex W
yeah i do. i think it takes time though. i'm still learning how to work through a lot of my shit tbh but part of that is just trying new things and taking each day as it comes i guess. so you can try that? like i don't know what kinda stuff you have going on but dude you're smart and you're nice and maybe that's not everything but i bet if you try, you can do it.
yeah specially since i volunteer with kids now so prolly not a thing that should be like common knowledge.
it wasn't something i ever wanted to do. i'm sure most people would say the same. not anything i ever thought of myself doing and it terrified me at first. [...] ok that's a lie, it terrified me every single time. stronger, older men, yknow. i'm not exactly someone who can really fight back, like, sizewise, if someone wanted something i didn't wanna give. most guys were cool about it. they just wanted to get off. if they wanted more, i turned it down or just booked it. probably it could of gone wrong in a hundred different ways but it never did. i got lucky and i hope i never have to do it again.
seriously, though, when it comes down to it? sex isn't that important. i know it is for some people or i couldn't have survived making money off it. but if you think you're missing out like...there's always a time and a place and everyone kinda goes at their own pace. it can come with a lot of regret if you're not careful. if i wish anything, its that i could of learned about it with someone i actually cared about. i guess if i have advice, its that? find someone you care about first.