Re: In-person: Holly W/Noah N
[Noah got questioning the, like, reality and solidity of what tf was going on. It did seem weird sometimes, but Repose was weird, so Noah probably accepted it more easily than most—especially given that he'd been born in Repose, thinking and feeling the thoughts and feelings of the people around him.] I didn't know it at the motel. But, after, when we were drunk? And you let me meet up with you? And obviously I held your cock when you peed. [He laughed.] I knew then. I knew when you agreed to meet me, even blindfolded, and when sometimes when we were talking and I could feel the spikes of your, like, interest or warmth. But, that's probably cheating. [Noah smiled over his shoulder at Holly, most of the traces of his tears having dried up. He nodded his head.] Okay, cautious. But, you couldn't resist me. [Noah knew saying as much might make Holly try to resist him now out of spite, but it was true anyway.
Trust me, Noah didn't want Adrian anywhere near Holly's mouth or cock. He so didn't follow the train of thought, because it wasn't worth it.] I can hit them up, yeah. [Noah sighed. It was all 'business,' right? And, dude, he was tired of business. Even though he was here to talk about it. Noah kind of just wanted to talk Holly into laying with him in the Jeep or something. But, he didn't. This was important, he knew that.] Yeah, no, his way won't help. But, yeah, maybe he knows something. [Noah knew he was being too agreeable or something. He pushed fingers through Holly's hair as the dude kissed his neck, and he sighed again.] I know. I'm not making a good argument. I can't convince you that you didn't mess me up. I don't know what else I can say, besides the fact that I just don't want to do it. Even though I know we probably should, for, like, your sake. I'm not good at thinking about this stuff. [Practicality wasn't his wheelhouse, yk?] I still think I need to just work on, like, not freaking. Not taking your reaction and reacting. I know you don't like it, but the Xanax has always helped with that. I don't want to hit them in, like, a bad way, but they have a purpose too, right?