Re: In-person: Holly W/Noah N
[Holly was mad sweet sometimes. Whatever the cause, dude, because Noah's selflessness could be traced back to selfish motivations too. Anything could be, if you kept pulling the thread. But, let's say it was true. That it was all selfish. Holly was still being sweet af, and, not for the first time, Noah was grateful for the dude. Like, way.
He held onto elbows, fingers wrapping around, and he looked at Holly. The dude was being direct—not that it really mattered when he wasn't, obviously, but still. It was good to hear? I think? Because it was still out there. Noah laughed slightly, even though it was still a little watery.] You know it's the opposite of selfish to need me to be okay, so you can focus on you being okay. [He pulled himself closer to Holly, careful not to crush his glasses against the dude.] I can... I can handle it. [He squeezed his eyes shut and opened them.] I think... if you have a bad day and I don't know about it... or I don't find out until later, I'd feel worse. I don't know. How do I do it? So you don't want to take it from me? [It was an appeal that Noah kind of suspected might bite him in the ass, but he didn't know. He didn't know how to not freak out (without drugs), except through, like, practice maybe.]