Re: In-person: Holly W/Noah N
[For all Holly said he (Holly) was selfish and all about self-preservation and stuff, it was actually sweet how much he definitely was not when it came to Noah. The dude went totally Mama Bear—in the best way. And Noah appreciated it. Duh. But, he didn't want Holly to always feel like he had to protect him, Noah, either. Because that meant sometimes he acted only on that. ...Anyway, when Holly said listen, Noah did. He was trying. His socks shifted in the dirt a little, because he didn't hold still well, but he was listening. He leaned into the hand on his throat, though, because he couldn't help himself and he met the brief kiss with a whine.
He wanted to stomp his feet a little, like a kid feeling frustration they couldn't contain. He didn't. Instead, his hands went to Holly's elbows.] I want that too, [he said of Holly telling him the stuff that was fucking him up.] I've been doing okay, you know? With the bud and the Xannies. I haven't been hitting them. It's easier not being at the school, around a bunch of really hormonal kids all day. I miss them like crazy, but it's easier. I'm not doing bad with it. I know you think I'm going to start pill popping like crazy, but I'm still just taking my prescription on the daily. I just—I need to be able to deal, so that you don't think I'm always falling apart whenever you have a bad day. That's on me. That's on me. I just need to deal. I know it makes me useless when you're upset and I don't like that.