Hannah S/Jeremiah M
I do love old movies. Maybe I will at that. Would you want to go with me sometime?
I hope it will be good, even if it is scary right now. I hope it will be good eventually.
It's not. It's like once you've been shown something in a hidden picture you can't stop seeing it, even if it's the same picture it was before. The old Jere me was innocent and naive. And I don't know that I would want that back. I don't think I'm quite who I want to be though. If that makes sense. Or, maybe more accurately I'm trying to figure out who I'm turning into? Do you think that's a constant process? Maybe that the naive part, or the innocent part was the belief that you could be 'finished'? Not that I would have said that it was possible before, but I think I thought it was. I couldn't imagine something that would so completely upend my life and make it so different than what I had before. And now I know that it can happen, and will happen maybe, again. I'm melancholy. I'm sorry. I don't think I used to be melancholy nearly so often.