Re: Claire J/Misha B
Claire, honey, I know. I realized it fore even learning about him, that they lied on account of being scared. I can feel they're scared. You know why Nephilim ain't meant to be? On account of having Grace and a soul both, and it makes them real awful strong. It's why it's forbidden. They took my momma's Grace, let her fall to madness, on account of me. They left me in Hell, one worse than the one down below, on account of me. They lied to me all my damned life, and it don't matter why. What matters is I spent all of it thinking I was mad, and I ain't forgiving them for that. I know you love God and all, but I always known there ain't much damned difference tween God and Satan. They're both just vying for power, and they'll both win and stomp on anyone they got to. The ends justify the means, be they good or ill, depending on who's warring, but it means the folks between are all real expendable. Don't you think for a second they won't rip you asunder if they reckon you joined his team. I get what you are, but I lived there a decade, mong them bastards, and there's a reason I ran away and down here. There's a reason they let me. I got Nilus' book, and he was a real strong angel, and he left me his journals. This ain't something that just happened to me. This is my entire damn life, and it's finally making sense. I ain't trusting them. Folks can be good without them. Folks can be bad, too. Folks are both. Souls make folks better than any angel or any demon, and I always known that.