Will C / Noah N
Maybe that's true. I'm not going to bullshit you and say you didn't make a mistake there. You want my honest advice on on all this?
If you really want this to work, you've got to put all your cards on the table. Tell the whole truth, including the parts where you know you fucked up. No justifications. If he'll hear that? Well, at least you've shown you're not going to lie anymore and that's the only way you're going to forward.
Do I think you being able to hear his thoughts takes away from what you feel? If anything, I'd say it's the opposite. You go through all this with a guy, hearing what I can only imagine wasn't an easy thing to hear, and you've still got feelings for him? I'd say that's probably the realest attraction I've heard of in quite awhile.