[Flips through the pages, noting the things that are familiar and the things that aren't, and then he reaches the part about his fight with Xion--the first one which he purposely looks over and ignores, not wanting to go back to remembering that. He hadn't wanted to use lethal force on her, but...he had to. It's what he was ordered to do.
He keeps going...farther and farther, word for word, sentence for sentence, until the words form something that makes a lump form in his throat. He hasn't read more than a few sentences in when he decides to shut the journal for a brief moment, eyes glancing back out at the ocean as if searching for some sort of distraction.