"No, sir." Of a sudden she's very pale indeed, her eyes wide and dark, her hands trembling until she folds them tightly on the tabletop. "My duty is to my lady. But she's not here, and I... I can't go to her -- even if you could do it twice, I wouldn't know how." She blinks tears away fiercely. "So I don't know what's right to do -- probably I ought to turn myself in for retraining, but I-- I'm afraid of that, and anyway I don't think you'd let me. And you've been kind to me, you've let me stay here and looked after me--" She draws a breath, collecting herself. "So if you want me to, I will. Not because I have to."