wood; OLIVER (quidditchary) wrote in reduxpitch, @ 2016-02-05 01:05:00 |
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Entry tags: | !owl, character: oliver wood, character: ron weasley |
Dear Ron,
I hope this letter finds you well. I feel that I should talk to you but I wasn’t sure whether us actually meeting up would either be wise or something you’d want. Obviously, I assume that you know why I’m writing to you. Or perhaps more accurately or why I might want to write to you.
Charlie told me that you weren’t very happy to learn that we are dating. This is not something I can say I understand but I feel that maybe I could explain to you why I don’t understand it. Perhaps it would make a difference, that’s a chance I feel I should take because I know you not being happy for Charlie really hurts him.
The thing is, Ron, I’ve been in love with your brother since I first met him. Sort of. Maybe not quite, but certainly since I was about twelve. I remember it happening. We were playing Quidditch and it was just after my first match. I did terribly. And I mean, really terribly, I fainted and everything. I was going to give up. I come from a family of Quidditch players so it’s always been a lot of pressure to do well in Quidditch, so when after trying so hard to do well, my first game was such a mess, I didn’t think there was a point in carry on, I thought I was just embarrassing everyone.
Charlie was the one who came to me and told me that I was being silly. That might not have been quite the words he used but it was rather the point. He also told me how just because I messed up once didn’t mean I would always mess up. Your brother put so much confidence in me that I’m not sure if without him I would be where I am now. I play professional Quidditch, that’s quite a long way from the twelve year old who fainted in his first game.
That made me appreciate Charlie for the sort of person he was. It made me want to be his best friend and it made me fall in love with him. The thing with being in love with your best friend is that it’s scary. It’s really scary. His friendship meant everything to me, it always has. That friendship to me was more important than anything else, well, almost anything, because I do love Quidditch. But that also meant that I couldn’t mess it up. I wasn’t allowed to say or do anything that might mess it up. That’s really hard to do when you’re in love with someone.
So I did my best to pretend that I wasn’t. And that was really rather painful but I got used to it. When you spend that long being in love with someone who only sees you as a friend, you get used to it. Like a constant baseline in the background.
I never told Charlie how I felt because I assumed he wouldn’t feel the same, worse, even, I assumed our friendship would fall apart. I can’t tell you how much it means to me that your brother has been willing to give me a chance. It’s only ever been something that I wouldn’t even let myself imagine because it hurt too much.
I know you and I don’t know each other very well, but actually, I feel like I know a lot about you. Charlie has told me many things about how you are, to me it has always felt like an equal amount of concern and pride. I know you’ve had struggles with many things, so I can imagine that perhaps sometimes it doesn’t feel like there’s much that might make other people proud, but I can assure you that the way Charlie talks about you and the things you get up to, he very much loves you.
I can’t and I won’t apologise for the fact that I love your brother. If I could give him up so you could have a better relationship, I would, because I think that family is very important and I know for a fact that it is very important for Charlie. This is also why the way you have reacted to Charlie and I dating is quite upsetting to him.
It’s probably quite strange, especially since Charlie hasn’t dated anyone before, but I want to assure you that I have no intention in doing anything but making your brother happy. I would never want to change him, because to me Charlie has always been perfect. I’m sure we can both agree that Charlie should be happy.
If you want to be angry at someone, please be angry at me and not your brother. It’s very hard for him to think that someone he cares so much for, you, might not wish him to be happy. I realise that this is not true at all, but unfortunately, I think that maybe that is what your reaction has come across as.
Not that you have to take my advice, I would understand if you didn’t, but maybe consider this: would you rather see your brother unhappy but with someone you would choose or happy with someone he would choose? I am not asking you to accept me or the fact that I’m dating your brother, I’m only asking you to accept the fact that your brother is happy. If you can be glad about that, then I think this would be much easier for both you and him.
I hope that perhaps you feel that with time this is something that might be easier for you. Don’t feel bad for finding this hard, just try to think about why you are finding this so hard. That’s all anyone can really ask.
Thank you.
Best regards,
Oliver.