This is...amazing. I don't know when it happened or how, but along the way I've lost some of my interest for fanfic. I keep reading the classics from time to time, but I don't feel that urge anymore, that need that once drove me to look for more, crave more always. In this case, though, I found something I'll go back to many times, I know it already, because it is amazing, yes.
And even though I feel a little guilty for liking so much this side of your writing, one that is so painful for you to write, I can't help but be grateful that you wrote it anyway :X