WHO: Irina and Open to any of the Denali Clan WHAT: Her thoughts are running on the revenge-seeking side, so she tries to clear her head WHERE: Wandering outside WHEN: Late afternoon RATING: No more than PG, I'd think STATUS: Incomplete and open
Loneliness. It was a word that Irina had never thought she'd find herself thinking about, let alone experiencing. Yes, she had family. She'd had that ever since Sasha had seen fit to save her and make her her daugher of sorts. With Tanya and Katrina, and now Carmen and Eleazar, by her side loneliness didn't feel possible. And yet it was still there. Lurking in those dark corners and constantly reminding her of its presence. That loneliness was paired with a face. That of her dear Laurent.
Missing a man was something that she'd never thought she'd do, and yet here it was. Haunting her every errant thought or taking up space in her idle meditations. Laurent was gone and he'd left the feeling of a void within Irina. One that taking other lovers, human or non, just didn't fill. There were no words for just how aggravating it felt at times. Or how it fueled thoughts laced with wanting revenge. Taking the lives of those who had killed Laurent would ease her pain, at least a bit. But that had been denied her. Why? Because of the treaty her coven was bound to by association. She couldn't go after the mutts who'd killed her mate. The Cullens wouldn't allow it. What ever happened to an eye for an eye?
A sigh passed her lips and she ran a hand through long blonde hair, golden eyes wandering and taking in the surrounding landscape. But what was happening inside of her mind? Well, there were so many ways to plot revenge. If she could not have it, then she could at least daydream about it. It seemed that thoughts of her sweet Laurent added fuel to the fire of her vengeance centered ideas.
Not many knew what it was like to not be able to claim something that you wanted so badly. And not everyone knew what it was like to feel incomplete.