Writing Things Down (28 Days, prompt 38) Title: Writing Things Down Fandom:28 Days Characters/Pairing: Andrea Delaney Rating: PG Word Count: 226 Challenge/Prompt: 38 - tears Summary: She keeps a journal.
Andrea keeps a journal, because that's what you're supposed to do. Every rehab she's been in, that's what they tell you. Write your feelings down! So she does, dutifully. Mostly it's pages and pages about Darien and Santa Cruz and OMG how could they do that and sometimes it's just variations on I want to get high so bad right now, so bad but, occasionally, not often, it's like she gets outside her head, or inside her head, or something, and not like when she's on drugs, not like that at all, it's something else, something different, and she writes stuff that maybe kind of means something. Maybe. Perhaps.
One day she writes about a bird she sees in a tree in the rain and how it makes her feel lonely and want to cry and another day she writes about the flowers her mom sent her and how they're dying and her roommate is complaining but she won't throw them away, she can't. She sits on her bed and eats candy and chews the end of her pen and thinks her thoughts and it's like they kind of fall on to the page, her thoughts, like her brain empties and it's almost the best feeling ever. Not better than being high, of course, because nothing's better than that, but it's pretty good, enough to maybe make her think that things can be okay, that she can be okay.