[Private] I wish I was as accepting of all this as some people around here seem to be. Maybe it's because they aren't missing someone (or someones) the way I am, or maybe they just think it's okay to pass the time here, until the end of whatever. Well, I've been to the end of whatever, to the several ends of whatever, and it's not all it's cracked up to be. I sit here and watch Clara interact with the Doctor, not my Doctor, not her Doctor either. Just a Doctor from the past. How can she be so comfortable around him? I mean, sure, he's the same Doctor but... Nonsense. I bet he doesn't even like fish fingers and custard!
Maybe Clara knows him better than I do. Maybe she's okay with him looking different and sounding different and yes, acting different as well. But I'm not. I can't. I just can't. I want to talk to him. I want to sit around with him like we used to and just poke fun at each other for whatever stupid reason we wanted. I want him to call me Pond again. I want to be able to look at him without tearing up. What the hell is wrong with me? [/Private]
Anyone out there willing to make me some tea? I might be coming down with something. Just sort of feel like sitting by the fireplace and not moving for a while.