First of all, Jude, you are not broken. There is nothing wrong with feeling the way you feel. Just because you haven't felt that way yet doesn't mean you won't ever, but also, even if you never feel that way about anyone, there's nothing wrong with that, either. Some people aren't interested in romantic or monogamous relationships. It's not a defect.
That having been said, I think that you might not have the answers now, but there is [...] sometimes a moment of clarity. Be patient with yourself. Be kinder to yourself.