"I am awful," Justin murmured. "I don't have any family left because...because..." He hiccuped. "I...want to be with them, want to be with you, I don't want to choose, I don't think I should have to. But that is not the way things work...and now Anthony..." He shivered, and stopped another burst of tears. "He's so jealous of Michael...I don't know why...they're friends. They...I don't understand."