Meg Jones (pl_megan) wrote in plagued_rpg, @ 2010-01-27 11:28:00 |
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Entry tags: | 1999 january, hogwarts: hufflepuff dormitory, megan jones, sally-ann perks |
Who: Sally and Megan
When: Backdated to after the breakup.
Where: Their Room
What: Megan needs her friend.
Status: Complete
Meg sat in her bed, blanket up to her chin and looking every bit as miserable as she felt. She had broken up with Stan. That was hard enough to believe. But on top of that? Nicky had been upset with her for not doing it in the first place. And now Megan felt like the worst person in the history of persons.
When the door opened to the dorm, Megan looked over and managed a tiny, small smile. "You're back."
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After talking to Professor Vector, she had gone back to her dorm, and spent one night in her own bed before returning to the seventh floor. She was too scared of running into anyone. When she had seen Megan's entry to her thigh, she had ran back. She didn't know what had happened, but that didn't really matter. Megan needed her and that was enough.
Sally burst through the door and pretty much launched herself at Megan's bed. "What happened? Are you alright? Do I need to fight someone?"
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Meg shook her head. "No. I broke up with Stan and it was awful. And Nicky wouldn't let me sleep in his room and I'm a horrible person and all I want is a hug." Megan stuck her lower lip out a little and sighed.
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Sally immediately wrapped an arm around her friend as soon as she said she had broken up with Stan. Sally knew it was the beat thing for Meg to do, but she knew the other girl would continue to feel bad about it. "Have you told Nicky you broke up with Stan?" Sally gave Meg's shoulder a squeeze as she was speaking.
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"No. I will, but I don't know if I can to run him and be with him when I feel so bad. Then he'll be mad at me because I'm upset about leaving Stan." She didn't think Nicky could understand how she felt. It was complicated and confusing.
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Sally nodded. That made sense. "Well, maybe you just take a night to yourself, and if you feel any better about it tomorrow, you can go tell him. You know, sleep on it." Sally did that a lot, sleep on things. It calmed her down. "I won't leave again." She felt a bit bad, not staying in the dorm. She missed being around her dormmates.
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"Will you sleep with me tonight?" Megan didn't want to be alone again. Last night had been awful being alone and she didn't want that again. She wanted to know there was someone with her.
"I ruined Stan's life."
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Sally squeezed Megan's shoulder again. "If you want me to, yeah." She shook her softly at her friend's words. "You didn't. I know you think you did cause he came to the ball for you, but that was his decision. He made a choice, and just cause he chose to be with you doesn't mean you ruined his life. Alright?"
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Megan wanted to believe that. She wanted to think his life wasn't fucked up because of her, but Megan knew better.
"He lost his job. And his flat. And it's my fault."
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"Thats the quarantine's fault. You can't blame yourself for everything Meg." Sally sighed softly and pulled Megan into a full hug, rather than the one armed hug she'd been doing. "He's going to get over it, and he'll understand that you two weren't perfect."
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"I tried telling him that! I told him we hadn't been happy. And he said he had never lied to me. He said he hadn't done anything wrong! And he got mad at me for kissing Nicky! Like it was okay for him to, but not me." Megan closed her eyes to stop the tears from coming again. She hadn't ever meant to hurt Stan. She did love him, but she just wasn't happy anymore.
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Sally reached up and wiped a tear off Meg's cheek. "He just needs to realize that for himself. You did the right thing Megs."
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"But what if Nicky doesn't end up loving me? What if we don't work out and then I'm alone?" Megan was terrified of ending up alone. She wanted to be with someone!
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"I don't think that will happen. But even if it does, you'll never be alone Meg. If Nicky doesn't end up loving you, someone else will come along that does. You're too good to be alone." So different from herself apparently, cause Sally was alone an awful amount of time lately.
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Megan nodded and tucked herself close to Sally. She wanted to feel happy and, okay, maybe she was being a bit dramatic, but she was sad. And felt awful for hurting someone. She just wanted to be held and told that she wasn't an awful person.
"You're the best."
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Sally settled herself into the bed, keeping Megan in her arms. She didn't blame the other girl for feeling the way she did, but she hated to see her for being so hard on herself. Sally chuckled and shook her head, giving Megan a tiny squeeze. "Far from it."
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"No arguments. I say you're the best and what I say goes." Megan squeezed Sally tightly once more. It was good to have friends she could depend on. People who wanted her to really be happy. Megan was one lucky girl.