"No! I don't- I don't care about that. I want you around because- because-" he sighed again and stepped backwards until he could ait without hurting himself or knocking over anything in the room. "Because I do." Wasn't that enough? Couldn't that be it? Why didn't anyone else understand that?
What if he was just bad at monogamy? He didn't want to hurt anyone but that's exactly what he was doing. Because shit was hard. And that wasn't a good enough reason!
Anger bubbling up in him, he shouted though he didn't realize it. "This is stupid. I love Penny. I love you. And that's not allowed and it's atupid and I don't want to hurt either of you or anyone else and that's all I'm able to do." It was possible that Benjy didn't even realize he had said he loved Oliver.