Perhaps it was all the alcohol in his system but Benjy's lip trembled when Oliver said he wasn't horrible, like he really meant it. Benjy knew what he was. He was a liar and a cheat and he kept hurting everyone who mattered most. Amd there was a likely chance he was going to do it again.
Benjy wanted Oliver. He'd wanted him for years and it was finally an obtainable desire. But he had never prepared himself for being engaged to someone else and gettting to have Oliver.
He shook his head and started forward, wobbling as he stopped himself. "It would be so much easier if you would hate me like you should."