He refrained from pointing out that he hadn't got his whole family there. That he hadn't got the one most important person. Because in all reality- he had. Fred was there. He was still dealing with that fact he was there as a ghost but he was.
"I.. I'm trying I just..." Rowan's words came back to him. It was okay to mourn, silly. Maybe that was what was holding him back, because mourning would mean accepting that his twin was no longer in the living.
It was accepting the fact that his best friend was no longer by his side.
With that thought he finally broke down completely. Not caring that Verity saw him. She'd already seen him much worse in the past few months. He let his tears come forth ignoring the pain in his hands as the saltiness of the tears hit his cuts.