Lucius, too, was momentarily shocked by Cyril's words. Shocked, then saddened. his mouth was not covered and the words spilled out as he struggled to stop them. "I don't deserve you, Cyril. I'm not good. I'm not bad either! I want to be good for you... I made mistakes and I was wrong and I just keep trying to get away from that life but it won't let me and I did use you, yes, but I only needed to know if they were close to a cure because a cure means the quarantine will end and then I'm fucked. I'll be back in azkaban and the worst part of that is I'll never see you again...."