"I just feel like something is happening to me. Something that I can't stop if I don't finish the trials back at home. I really just want this all to go away.. to get rid of the fevers that I keep having Castiel.. the nightmares." he admitted that part, sometimes telling the truth did help a little with the situation. Or he hoped that it would help at least, he didn't want his brother to worry either.
"I've been trying to look this place up on my laptop that thankfully came with me but nothing is showing up with what I need. It's just really driving me crazy and I need to fix this eventually." he hoped he wasn't repeating himself, but lack of sleep and a fever didn't help him any.