Ha, well.. the only person I've really talked to about it is my therapist, and she has so much bullshit noise to say about it that it doesn't really help anything. Not that I really find it appropriate to go on about things like that with someone you've just met, but I have been told that when I'm under the influence that what I consider appropriate varies greatly from when I'm sober.
It would actually be really nice to talk to someone who wasn't paid to give advice. And who could actually get it on more than a clinical level.
The more I think about it, the more I'm tempted to take you up on it. You're as kind as you are beautiful, sweetheart. Thank you.