Sam.
I didn't say that. I just said that we needed to be prepared. Learning how to control whatever the hell it is that was put into me? That's a big step toward being ready for what's to come.
I'm not asking for your approval on this. As soon as I can find someone who is capable of teaching me, then that's it. I'm not holding back. I need to learn and I need to learn now before Lilith and her army turn up here next. The people here might be tough enough, but they don't have any experience with the things from our world. They wouldn't know what the hell hit them, Dean, and I'd prefer to see to it that nothing hits them at all in the first place.