There was this Slayer activated. She wanted my "Queen" title. I guess Giles sent in Faith to kill her before she could kill me. Only when I got 'ported there I ended up fighting her briefly before Faith and I crashed through a window and went for a dip. She didn't kill me, and then Willow brought me back. As far as I know Faith fought the other Slayer and now she's dead.
Likewise. Or Giles and Xander, sometimes I'll listen to them. I'm not arguing they do the job. I can't argue that, because it's true. But I can't just change. We've both given up so much to get where we were, for years. It was the only thing I had. Being a Slayer is all I am, the army was mine. When everything you are is taken away, what the hell are you?