Faith
I won't. I won't find one girl, rational or not that'd be okay with what we did. But that wasn't what I asked. You have every right to be hurt, and yeah we did wrong. In a whole lot of ways. Me more than him.
I'm just saying, thats not what he thought was going on. At any point.
I know I betrayed Castiel. I know and I've told him as much. What happened with Sam not to mention who I was doing it all for. I've apologised and I'm making it up to him.