I don't know. It's hard, so much of that time was lies overlapped with more lies and I don't even know how to feel about any of it. In so many other ways you were the other woman. It may not have been sex, but I mean, if I was having kinky bitey blood fun with Spike, everyone would have considered it cheating. But still, I know he did it out of some need to protect us. It's something he still wants, he always will. He'd stop the sun setting if he could.
John probably was. For me, I think it was when you told me to just be the girlfriend. I had my doubts before then, but it was basically when you were telling me that I had no identity beyond agreeing with him on everything, even when he was wrong. That was when I knew whatever was going on with you wasn't just training.