Sarah
What seriously? The demon and her good deed for the day?.
I know all that, how betrayed he must feel. I get it. And I made it worse cause I had to tell him it was all a lie after. He needed that bond broken and I did it and now, I guess its gone forever. And I hate that.
I really hope I haven't screwed his idea of friends up. I do care about the kid.
It was, more personal for Cas. It was his brother, I was betraying him for his brother and I think thats what still gets to him more than anything else. I guess the rest of you don't have that betrayal so its easier. Faith, she said she could forgive the world ending stuff but not what I did to Sam. Truth is though, What I did to Sam and Cas and everyone is what I feel worse about. The Lucifer side of it. Thats what I believed. I was wrong and I regret it but I feel less bad about it than the personal stuff.
I don't know what other reason there is. And not having them in my life, it feels strange. Confusing. Everythings just confusing lately.