Sarah
I get that. I understand love, and faith, and happiness. And maybe looking for gain here isn't how I should be going about this but honestly, until I came here all I ever saw was the worst of humanity. Soul selling, people on the rack, there mostly because they deserved it or were stupid enough to make deals. I assumed thats what humanity was because its what I was.
How, as in, what they're feeling. Especially Sam.
He did? ...I didn't know. Thats...
It's taped back in?
Its alright, I'm not insulted, and I actually like talking this out. It makes a little bit more sense when I do and its good to have people to talk to again, you, Lavender, Anya. There's Castiel but thats the hardest one of all.
The things I wasn't supposed to have, Castiel, Sam, Ben, an almost close to civil relationship with Dean and John. Its why they hate me, I understand that. They let a demon in and were proved right about their fears. There's no such thing as a good demon, but they let me in and I spat on that trust. And I don't even want to get started on Mary and how much apologising to her would terrify me.