Sarah
Humanity is complicated, and I don't think thats clear unless you don't have it. And I don't. It got burned away in the pit and I didn't care. I didn't even really care till I came here. Sam stopped being just a weapon and I met Castiel, And they saw something in me that wasn't there. And Cas says I can have it, I can try. But for what? I guess I'm always looking for the gain, for why?.
I wish I understood them, I know why they hate me, but I wish I knew how?
...Doubt it, why would he? Or he misses something that he thinks wasn't real.
Sick thing is, I liked it, the lie. Living it, becoming it. It was something good, and I'd never had that before. I tried to gloss over the truth for months, and then things changed, circumstances fell into place and I had to try. I thought it would make things better.
...you don't want to hear this, its not a big deal anyway right. Doesn't excuse it.