Sam.
No, I don't have any idea how sorry you are, because I don't understand how a person could do everything you did when it came to us and not have any idea that deep down, something wasn't right. You don't ask someone to marry you or anything like that if you don't love them the way it takes to get married in the first place. I don't understand that, and I'm sorry, Sam, it makes no sense to me. I thought the breakup itself was way out in left field, but this whole thing just made my head spin even faster.
I gave you more than I gave anyone, ever. You saw parts of me nobody else saw, parts I'd never wanted anyone to see in the first place. You are the first and only person I ever felt like I could be my complete self around and you still cared enough and looked past all that to be with me. And I thought you felt the same way. And now that I find out that wasn't the case, I feel like nothing. I gave everything I was to you and you didn't do the same, not honestly and wholeheartedly, and let me tell you, it's one of the emptiest feelings I've ever felt before in my life. I can't explain it any other way than being robbed and hollow way down deep inside. So I'm going to act like I'm nothing. I feel like nothing now.
You love and care about a lot of people, Sam. And that's wonderful. But when I see you'd take time out to go see someone like Faith with a hangover before you'd take a second out of the day to make sure I'm feeling okay? The person who's been carrying your child for the past few weeks? That can make a person feel like nothing too, Sam. I don't know why you're suddenly trying to make me feel better after you've spent weeks not bothering, but anyone can say they care and that they want to be there for you, it's when you actually do it that shows it.