Sam.
You've said all kinds of things that cut deep, Sam. And leaving pretty much did the same thing. You might not have intended to do it, but I mean it when I say I feel like an obligation to you, or when I think about how much you can't stand me now. I know this hurts you, too, but think about what it's like to love somebody more than anything or anyone else in the world, and they treat you the way you've been treating me. After breaking up with you on top of it. You end up feeling like you're worth nothing, that you'll never be anything to anybody. It just...it hurts. It hurts more than anything I've ever felt before. At least you don't feel the way I do about you. It can't possibly be this painful. You might be saddened by it, but you can walk away and eventually be okay with it. I can't.