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What happened last night, there's no excuse for. But there is a reason.
Things haven't been going well. I know they haven't been going well for a lot of people, in a way worse way than me, but I just fit into that category too is all I'm saying. And then when Ruby said what she said, it was kind of like the last straw in a way, even if I still don't think she was entirely wrong. Normally, I would've been able to brush it off, but considering everything else along with it, that didn't happen obviously. And...back home, I would've...done something else to deal with it. But I don't do that here, not anymore. So it was literally like an explosion, and it didn't make any sense and it wasn't normal by any stretch of the imagination. But I'm not really normal, either, in the sense that I didn't really deal with the stuff that happened in Silent Hill all that well. It's one of those things that comes back to haunt you.
Anyway, I don't want to make this too longwinded, because then it'll just sound like an excuse, and that wasn't what I wanted. What happened, that's just not me, is all. I...had to say that. And I'm sorry if anyone was offended or hurt or anything by what I was doing, last night or otherwise. That definitely wasn't my intention either.