"I know," she said, resting her head against Pepper's for a moment. It was comforting, having a friend, someone she could talk to. So many of her friends were male back home and it was nice to have another woman who understood what she was going through. "Nothing is wrong here, it's safe, I feel pretty good all things considering although my boobs hurt like crazy and Barry really is super sweet. I'm lucky I met him."
She hadn't even been thinking about having a child right away when she'd arrived but after her first conversation with Barry, she'd come to like him a great deal. "It's funny how you can get to know someone that well so quickly here. Maybe it's Arva's doing or maybe it's just as simple as the fact that all we have is one another so we have to let each other in." Christine lifted her head and was silent for a moment.
"Pepper," she began, looking over at her friend. "Do you think I'm a bad person for giving the baby to Arva? Sometimes I worry if I'm being selfish. I wanted to be pregnant to prove to myself I could do it, get over the fear but I'm not going to raise the child. Then I think no, Arva will take good care of him or her, I'm not doing a bad thing...it's just so confusing."