Beyond the look on his face, she could hear it in his tone and she didn't feel good about it, either, but Lydia...had gathered from the private conversations she and Malia had had that there was more to it, on her end at least, than just a baby. Whatever was going on with she and Isaac, it was a hell of a lot more, from her perspective, than was going on between Lydia and Stiles and the last thing any of them needed was even more stupid drama. She looked apologetic. "I think we should," she repeated. She didn't feel like it was her place to tell Isaac anything Malia said in confidence, but at the same time, he had every right to know. So...she tried to compromise.
"I just feel like...I get the impression that Malia's...feelings for you are complicated and delicate and...right now with her pregnant, I can't be the reason for more drama and stress from and for her, I just...can't. So when it's over and the babies are born and we don't have to worry about the negative impacts of stress on a growing child, then I'll be right here and if she doesn't like it, then that's too fucking bad. But right now, I don't want to upset her even more and cause you or the baby more problems when she loses it in the process, you know...?" she asked, desperate for him to understand but worried that he wouldn't; that he would think she was ashamed of the way she was starting to feel about him when that wasn't the case at all.
Her cheeks warmed and she smiled a little, her sunburned nose wrinkling shyly. "It really did, didn't it?" she asked with a soft laugh as she snuggled herself against him, looking back up at him fondly. "We keep doing things the way we were doing them for now," she said and a slightly mischievous smile crept over her lips, "...but now maybe we sneak off like this once in a while when we can. And then when the babies are born, we go all in and see where it takes us, because we'll only have ourselves to worry about, then. ...is that okay, or...?" she asked, suddenly realizing that she probably should ask rather than tell him. "I'm not going anywhere."