"Letting you go was the hardest thing I ever did, Patty," Barry said. He knew that the words were little comfort and he certainly didn't expect her to forgive him for all the lies, both by omission and outright.
He resisted the urge to reach out and touch her shoulder in a gesture of comfort, knowing that it wouldn't be appreciated right now. "I almost told you so many times. I was planning to tell you. And then the Turtle took you. And he took you because he knew you were important to me." He sighed and forced himself to look up and meet her eyes. "If I told you the truth, if I let you stay in Central City, it would have been like painting a giant target on your back." The fear he felt that something would happen to her, because of him, was still palpable, even though it was long over.
"You have to understand. I watched my mother get murdered in front of me. My father went to jail for it because I couldn't make the authorities believe that he wasn't guilty. Two other people that I cared about, that people I love cared about, died because I couldn't save them. I couldn't go through that again." Talking about Eddie and Ronnie was still hard. He couldn't get over the feeling that he had failed Iris and Caitlin. Especially now that he failed Caitlin again with Jay.