ISAAC.
You can be afraid of getting hurt and you can be tired of putting yourself on the line and taking that risk...and you can be the grumpy asshole that I used to be, miserable to the point that even the bright side looked dark. ...or you can take the opportunity in front of you and run with it when the time is right and you can turn it around like I did.
I get what you're saying, I really do. I know why you don't want to go down that path and believe me, I get it, it's fucking bleak. But then you get to the end of the line and the darkness is behind you...and you can breathe again. So either way, the choice is yours. You can stand in the darkness or you can start walking. Me, I left Beacon Hills and I started walking...and then I met Larissa. You got here. Stand still or move. It's up to you, man. But if you decide to walk, I think you'll find that there are people here now, who've grown and learned from their mistakes or who don't know you and all the shit you've been through, who want to be there on the side of the road cheering you on. Maybe...you should let them.