First of all, 'defending Lydia?' What did you want me to do, stand there and tell you that she was a bitch? That she was out to get you and everything that she was doing was out of obvious hatred because she irrationally hates you and everything is her fault? She overreacted. You overreacted. And right now, she's pregnant, and you're trying to be an Alpha. Acting like a brat about some spat you two had when you literally just got here isn't being a leader, it's being a damn child.
Second of all, all I said to you was that things were different here. And if you wanted to be an Alpha, you needed to pull everyone together. Bitching about people isn't going to get you there. It has been two years since I've spoken to you, I left because I couldn't stand being around you after watching what happened with Allison, and if you want to hold that against me then, fine. Maybe I shouldn't have left. Maybe I should have stayed in the town that my father, my brother, and then a woman I loved was buried in, if you want to be mad at me that I'm uncomfortable and unwilling to jump into a pack head first after being an omega for two years, that's fine too.
If you want a pack then you need to make it clear why a pack is good for people. Give them a reason to join together. Accusing me of defending someone who's supposed to be your friend isn't the right way to go. If you want to give up then give up, but don't put words in my mouth.